忽然很想跟自己说声对不起

对不起

总是让自己不开心

总是莫名其妙的忧伤

给自己太多的压力

总是忘了提醒自己

好好照顾自己

总是不能为所欲为的

做自己喜欢的事

总是和别人说对不起

而忘了自己

因为悲观

让自己不再相信生活

因为倔强

让自己受了很多伤

因为伪装

让自己活的很辛苦

因为年轻

让自己疲惫了太久

因为悲伤

麻烦了一些爱我的人

很久没有好好的照顾自己

很久没有好好的利用时间享受生活

很久没有给自己挑一份喜欢的礼物

曾经为了别人

而难为自己

难过的时候

只能让自己硬撑着

含泪微笑的时候

我没有倾诉

心那么的疼

还要假装着不在乎

让自己装了这么多年的无所谓

很多东西

我没有学会好好珍惜

对不起

忘记了要搁浅

对不起

再也找不回原来的自己了

弄丢了太多的东西

忘记了太多的事情

舍弃了太多的责任

对不起

对不起

对不起

真的对不起

不敢乞求自己的原谅

只有让自己活得更好

才能对过去的生活有所补偿

忘记所有

重新开始

抬头仰望夜空

眼泪都已倒流

嘴角轻轻上扬

告诉自己…

明天太阳依旧灿烂

生活却要华丽转身

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sorry =[

shyt..
this semester is totally crazy...
especially the Design 201...
i cant stand it...
the lecturers kept asking us to do work and submit on the nxt class..
which is just three days between...
we still have to go to other classes
and do other assignments...
they thought we are JUST TAKING DESIGN 201 THIS SEMESTER????
the design assignment is more than enough to finish all my time...
asked us to do site analysis..
well... after submission..
u guys dont really get what we want u to do..
what the xxxx???
why dont u brief us before asking us to do?!?!?!
everytime after submission ask us to re-do...
do u think we are so free??
and the site model and booklet..
complained a lot...
but DID YOU GUYS EVEN COME TO LOOK AT OUR PROGRESSION WHEN WE ARE DOING THE WORK?!?!?!
re-do re-do re-do...
im tired of this...
please BRIEF US CLEARLY on what we have to do!!!!

staying up almost every night...
considering to drop module...
especially BM for this semester...
will be having the presentation on wednesday...
and i havent even touch it..
and have to submit the essay on week 12...
alright... 24 hours is just not enough for me...

doing culture presentation slides just now...
well.. sorry my friends...
had a bad mood just now...
i'm just too tired...
of assignments...
how i wish i could sleep till the afternoon of the nxt day...

friends asked me to sleep earlier and take care of my health...
thanks for caring...
but i wish i could sleep earlier too...

time is passing so fast...
that this semester is just going to end soon...
holidays are coming...
but yet...
still a lot to be done...
i'll try...
try to be strong..
try to control my temper..
try to hold on...
until the end of this semester...

if next semester going to be like this too...
dropping module should be take into deep consideration...

done with the Bali site model yesterday..

er no... i should say this morning...
7 am...
we left the campus while all the staff is coming to work...
its 4 meters long... x_X

eww... sleepless night from friday...
now finally done the model...
and the lecturers said have to submit 2 A1 of site analysis on friday
zzzzzzzzzzz
they tot we are machines can work non stop...
and design 201 is the only module we taking?!?!

















seriously such a crazy semester...
super duper tired..
so many things to do...
i dont have enough time.. T_T
dont have confidence to pass all the modules...
what if fail... T_T
im gonna die str8 after this semester..

I NEED HOLIDAY
I NEED REST
I NEED SLEEP
I NEED PLAY
!!!!!!!!!!